hmm, addressing the more serious problem first:
I had a major problem with depression and wanting to commit suicide in HS. Go to the docter about that first. Don't live on your own if you are diagnosed with depression or some other mental disorder. You may find, if you are diagnosed with depression, that once you start on medication or therapy, you truly have a lot more that you just never saw before. I thought no one liked and me that no one ever would. I got pumped full of drugs.. 5 a day, just for my depression, and looked around and saw that I was just paranoid the whole time. I actually had a lot of people in my life that really cared. Eventually, you get weened off the meds and live your life like a normal person again.
on what to do next year:
I'm transfering to a 4 year school this year. I'm nervous as hell! My roommate is younger than me and all my friends have typically been 2-3 years older than me. Most the people I know that go to my school, I hate. So, what I plan on doing is getting involved in AURH, its the dorm student government. Since your not going to be in the dorms, try doing regular student government. Do you have a place in your heart for an particular group of people? I care a great deal about deaf rights, and plan on doing some volunteer work. That is a great way to meet the nicest people. Not only do you get to hang out with other volunteers, but often times, you make friends with the people you are helping. You can turn just about anything into a great way to share your time with those less fortunate. Good with computers? Build computers for people without enough money to buy new ones. Good with kids? Help out at an orphanage. Good with numbers? Help do the taxes of a family in need. There are tons of student run organizations you can get involved in.
As for the girlfriend thing:
If you get help, and start getting on your feet, you'll have the slowly reviving puppydog thing going on, and chicks can't resist that. Also, if you do the volunteer thing, chicks love a guy that cares. It'll all come in time.
Best of luck to ya!
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