i wonder if she isn't doing something like that sometimes.. but I know her pretty well, even though when she comes back, and we talk, we might not end up together, I think there is still a chace (im saying I don't think she would hurt me by not saying we're over forever if we were). and when you think about it, would you want to go on a study abroad with this very settled relationship back home? I guess I know that if it was me over there and we were on break, I would be having a great time and not thinking about her much, just letting what happen happen... Its just harder for me because im still here thinking about her, and live where we spent 2 and a half years together. recently I have been thinking about living for right now, and having the best time I can in my current situation, and my mood has been better. so thanks lurkette for the advice
I was telling myself that, but wasn't really listning.. hearing it from someone else helped.