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If you're on a break to have more experiences, I'd suggest you stop worrying about what she is doing and go have some experiences. Not necessarily romantic/sexual ones, although that might also distract you, but go on a road trip by yourself, learn to do something new, try something you've always wanted to try, like flying lessons or kayaking or rock climbing or pottery or something. You can't control what she's doing, or what she wants, but you can control how you live your life and what you do with your time on earth, and waiting idly and thinking up jealous fantasies doesn't sound like the most productive use of your time.
If you find that you can't live without her and you'd like to get back together when she's back in country, then this break has shown you what you really want. If she doesn't feel the same way, then you won't have wasted the "time off" moping for her, but will have been doing something productive and fulfilling with your time, for yourself, not for the relationship. Can't lose.
So go distract yourself. It'll seem hard at first, but it's worth it.
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