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johnyto · 06-18-2003, 03:42 PM

well, that is my dilemma. I have been following through the Washington little problem he had with women. To make this clearer, i am going to write a book in here (j/k):

year: 1999
place: high school
characters: me, my friend from school and the one who could have been...

well, for the homecoming game i was really interested on this one chick, but i didn't know her, so what i did was to write a letter to her. I told her that i liked her a lot and that i was anxious to know her a little better and that i wanted to somehow go on a date with her. Well, then i talked to her friend to find out more details and stuff. From there, i wanted to ask her to the dance, i didn't ask her because of family problems and i had no cash... well, one week after the dance i asked her friend what was going on with "her" and she told me that she has a b/f and stuff. The minute she told me this, i was in shock and sad as hell. Well, i respected that "fact", but at the end of the school year, i asked my friend who did go to senior prom and danced with her and he told me that she made up the fact of her b/f and it was just a lie.

Then, after that i was like really pissed off about it, so i was like feeling like crap for the rest of graduation day. Following that she saw me a couple of times, stared and looked down, like nothing happened, right there at school. Perhaps feeling sorry for what was going on or something.

One week after graduation, i called her house and asked her father if she was there. He said no so i said that i had called as a message to her. It has been four years since then, and i still haven't been able to forget about her = she is just special.

So, what i did was talk to one person at work, and he recommended me to talk to her on the phone, but the phone number i used that time was off the yellow pages, so i was like, hell no...

Luckily enough, i found her college e-mail address, so i did e-mail her and told her that i am sorry and stuff and that past is past.

So, what do you think i should do? Wait for her reply or talk to her on the phone?

If i call her, i don't want to be a threat to her, i want to at least talk to her for a couple of minutes for the first time, but i hate the rejection thing and also the fear up my brain of doing so...

What should i do?

Thanks guys. i hope someone has been through this...

06-18-2003, 03:42 PM	#1 (permalink)
johnyto Upright Location: Chicago, Ill	Feeling the loss of not doing what i was supposed to? well, that is my dilemma. I have been following through the Washington little problem he had with women. To make this clearer, i am going to write a book in here (j/k): year: 1999 place: high school characters: me, my friend from school and the one who could have been... well, for the homecoming game i was really interested on this one chick, but i didn't know her, so what i did was to write a letter to her. I told her that i liked her a lot and that i was anxious to know her a little better and that i wanted to somehow go on a date with her. Well, then i talked to her friend to find out more details and stuff. From there, i wanted to ask her to the dance, i didn't ask her because of family problems and i had no cash... well, one week after the dance i asked her friend what was going on with "her" and she told me that she has a b/f and stuff. The minute she told me this, i was in shock and sad as hell. Well, i respected that "fact", but at the end of the school year, i asked my friend who did go to senior prom and danced with her and he told me that she made up the fact of her b/f and it was just a lie. Then, after that i was like really pissed off about it, so i was like feeling like crap for the rest of graduation day. Following that she saw me a couple of times, stared and looked down, like nothing happened, right there at school. Perhaps feeling sorry for what was going on or something. One week after graduation, i called her house and asked her father if she was there. He said no so i said that i had called as a message to her. It has been four years since then, and i still haven't been able to forget about her = she is just special. So, what i did was talk to one person at work, and he recommended me to talk to her on the phone, but the phone number i used that time was off the yellow pages, so i was like, hell no... Luckily enough, i found her college e-mail address, so i did e-mail her and told her that i am sorry and stuff and that past is past. So, what do you think i should do? Wait for her reply or talk to her on the phone? If i call her, i don't want to be a threat to her, i want to at least talk to her for a couple of minutes for the first time, but i hate the rejection thing and also the fear up my brain of doing so... What should i do? Thanks guys. i hope someone has been through this... __________________ This life is good...well, if you think of it being that way!!!