I know people are quick to walk on eggshells around the topic of suicide, but i've had friends and family members of said friends commit suicide and honestly, it just pisses me off to know why they did it. I don't care if your gf left you, and you lost your job, if life kicks you in the balls, you just get up and brush yourself off and deal with it.
I'd be tired of you too if you tried to commit suicide several times. What do you expect? you're basically saying "fuck you, none of you mean enough to me to want to live anyway" so why should they trouble themselves with you? you've committed the biggest slap to the face imaginable.
If you want them to be your friend, if you want them to care about you, you need to become a worthwhile person without them there babying each step and holding your hand for it. Once you've established that baseline, move on with your life, make new friends, start over.
if they want to be your friend, they will be.
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