Vertigo

I know i suck but here goes nothing, i wrote it a couple months ago.


the tv flashing in the dark
whispering voices on the background
they are showing themselves off on the screen again
how can they bond with people so easily

the emotion in their voices changes every second
their thoughts are on a different level ,i can hear
just illusions trying to entertain me
all of their mood swings are making me ill
it all comes out in a negative way

what's there to enjoy now?
trying to be as stereo type as they can be
spending money around ,repeating everything, it's all the same , everyday
trying to hard to fit in
thinking about ways to satisfy

it's time for a change
to make it all clear and blend it all together
into one big emotionial program
and i still don't get it ,
it's all just one big ol freak show
ruined at the end



And here's some more to keep it one thread,

knowing there are people
alone by themselves on a new years day
realizing the potential
of something really unique and wonderfull

the creation of something too banal
and hollow to be appreciated by anyone ,

a reflection of myself a personal nature to me
feelings ,the creation of something too banal and hollow
to be appreciated by anyone ,

I expect to be unutterably boring to everyone else but me
this is one of those peculiarly clichéd concepts which people have a tendency to look down upon
average individual end up being little more than a list of favorite songs, or favorites
I never once felt like I truly fit in with my peers
The perplexed expression on my face thus has a dual significance ,

wishing i could crawl out of my black tunnel
The truth is what i seek