I think the problem is, inherently, I see porn as quite negative towards women - aggressive, not about their enjoyment, and so even though I am really into sex and trying new things it's one area where I feel quite principled...in porn nobody ever kisses afterwards and says 'Honey, I love you, thanks for letting me jizz on your face!', it's all so cold and clinical, as a romantic and an idealist I don't want sex to just be about the 'in and out', I feel it should be deeper? Even when it's hot and heavy, when I'm in love I want to feel a connection?
I am a loser. haha. Shit...
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