dalnet22

Hey, this is a long story, and the reasons are complex and mysterious. However, wherever I go, I am constantly worrying about what others think. Part of it is because I recently changed my beliefs and way of thinking for the better. I used to be a very angry, prejudice kid, but I broke out of that last year. I am almost 21, and I don't have many friends anymore because the old ones dislike the new me.

So now, I'm a junior in college with few friends across the country. I feel like wherever I go, I'm scared that everyone is judging me, and if I don't like perfect or say things right, they're going to dislike me. But, it goes as far as worrying about the cashier at a store, or the neighbors driving by while I'm running outside. it really affects how I act in public.

This is a loaded subject that requires a lot of explanation and discussion. So, I'm just wondering if anyone else has this problem, and how do you get through it. Or, does anyone have any advice (outside of joining a club because I am in a few already).

Part of the problem is I don't know a single person who believes the things I do, and I've experienced many people cutting me off because of who I am. So, I'm scared it will happen with everyone... that I will say what I think in a class, and someone will call me out for it; and then I will react badly and regret it.