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Oh shit.... the wierdness continues. Read more about my fucked up little life.
I get up this morning and decide I have to get things happening with other women. So I message the girl I met on the beach and ask her out. Turns out she's busy this weekend because it's Christmas but YES she wants to see me next week. Ok. Will try again later.
I walk downtown on one of the main drags. I real knockout girl with big tits walks out of a store and has a cigarette in her hand. I stop and light it for her and ask her name etc... She's pretty nice and asks me what club I'm going to tonight. I don't know and she tells me where she's going. Maybe I'll see her there? Hmm.. sure.
10 mins later I'm walking up the same street and sit down on a concrete bench along the walkway. Who comes bouncing along just as I sit down? The woman who this thread is all about. She's happy to see me and recognized me by my t-shirt. I'd given her a photo of myself wearing it while I was in Rio. Turns out she hadn't left the club before me the other night and was on the dancefloor with her friends. She didn't read my message until 5 am when she got home. The clubs stay open till 5 or 6 am by the way.
She's going away for the weekend because of Christmas but will be back next week and wants to get together with me and her friends who, it turns out like me. I tell her that clubs are too busy and I want to do something with just to the two of us. Go out for dinner or coffee alone so we can talk. There's a flash of hesitation and then she says ok. She'll contact me when she gets back. Hmmm... guess it isn't over yet.
I've also got this other woman on my mind. She's the one who originally set me up with said woman. We meet and talk once a week at her store. Lately she's been talking about how she wants to break up with her boyfriend because he's never around and has kids from a previous marriage. He won't be in the city for New Years and she looks me deep in the eyes and says "I don't have a man for New Years". Oh shit... it never rains but it pours.
I've read the ladder theory but will have to go over it again to figure it out. I've also read several good dating books and apply that stuff at times. I think I've played every role from badboy to total wimp at various times. I'd like to say I can control it but I can't. I have this strong personality that seems to turn itself on but not all the time. Very strange to say but that's how I feel. It's not always a good thing. Scary for other people and I think it's close to what some guys call Alpha Male.
About being smooth... I've had guys to awe of my pickup abilites, mainly in Brazil. Not only for sex but just to talk to them and take them out. I literally pointed out a girl to an Irish guy and told him I was going to take her out. That night, I did. Another girl I just looked at the right way and she was all over me. I could explain exactly how I seduced her but if I "tried" to do it tonight at a club, it wouldn't work. It's not something I can turn on.
Anyway... I think I'll go take a cold shower then look up this ladder theory thing. I also need to learn how to be an asshole and badboy. Maybe get a tatoo of a snake on my arm or something.
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