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No part of this is easy.
She may continue to try to blame you for this, but it's worth noting that she's the one at fault (said umpteen times already, I know). It's not that you didn't love her right, it's that she didn't tell you what you were doing wrong, if anything. You can't be expected to divine such things from thin air.
Financial and legal advice has already been provided and I can't really add much to it. Give yourself time to be upset over this as well as time to relax. You need to let yourself feel how you're going to feel without letting it control your life. There will be times when you'll feel like it's all too much to carry and there will be times when your anger will surpass everything. Let it go, do what you need to do. Try taking up a physical activity, like strength training or a sport if you don't already. Physical exertion is a great way to relieve stress and it'll get you out of the house. A lot of folks have a tendency to dwell when left to their own devices, which can be very crippling to the process of getting past this. You don't want to sit there and try to puzzle out what went wrong, you want to move past this and onto bigger and better things.
The folks on this forum are some of the kindest and most understanding individuals I've ever known in any form. If you need someone to talk to, I will personally offer my own ear to bend and I can state with confidence that most of the other folks here will do the same.
Take care of yourself. We're all pulling for you.
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I wake up in the morning more tired than before I slept
I get through cryin' and I'm sadder than before I wept
I get through thinkin' now, and the thoughts have left my head
I get through speakin' and I can't remember, not a word that I said
- Ben Harper, Show Me A Little Shame
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