abaya, it isn't my first relationship. I've had several serious boyfriends, and been in love a few times...but it's different from that first real boyfriend thing when you feel like he's the one and you want to be with him forever. Looking back on that feeling, I know I was just so young and naive and didn't understand what relationships were really like.
Malificent, it's too late for me to not be untrusting and screwed up..that's part of the reason why I'm afraid. I feel like I am too much to handle for most people. In fact, I was told that once by one of my boyfriends. He wasn't saying it to be mean, he was just being truthful. I feel better right now, but it's the beginning of a beautiful day and I have a Christmas party with friends to cheer me up!
Thanks for the support
