abaya

This is normal. You ARE handling it. Sometimes life is really sad. Sometimes you will feel angry. Sometimes you will want so very badly to just talk to her. It's okay to FEEL these things... you have to let them run through you, let them run their full course and bulldoze your soul for a while. But while you feel things deeply, do not let them control you. Don't call her. Feel the pain of not calling her, but don't give in to it. It sucks. But it's better that way, in my experience.

I apologize if I'm the most depressing person on this thread, and maybe I don't have good advice to give. But I honestly think there's little you can do to "escape" this shit. You just have to go through it. Activities and rebound girls might get your mind off it, but you won't learn what you need to learn from the situation in the long run if you just stuff the pain away deep inside. The most valuable thing from all this... it's not about having her, but what you have learned about yourself from being with her, and then losing that relationship and becoming a stronger person through dealing with it.

That's all I've ever learned from the pain... because we all lose each other, even when people have the perfect marriage, etc... either through breaking up, divorce, or death. We all gotta learn how to grieve. So you are going through something very normal, and we are here for you. Remember that you are not alone.

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And think not you can direct the course of Love;
for Love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.
--Khalil Gibran