After reading this thread I have a little advice....but I ask that you take it in the way it is meant, constructive.
You need to decide to become a man, and toss the boy aside.
I mean no offense by this as we have all had to make this transition to become who we are. The Idea that the selfish and needy Boy deserves and requires outside stimulation is as old as the Penis. Until you make the jump to understanding that the world is no longer revolving around "Your" needs , you will not be ready to commit to ANY woman. If indeed you have found your soul mate, hey, more power to you. But, to myself it is relatively obvious that this is up for debate, as you feel it is acceptable to cause harm to this person, simply to meet a percieved physical need.
Your call, But if you truly Love this woman.....would you really want to hurt her in such a way.......I know I dont.
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Holding onto anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned. - Buddha
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