That first reply was a bit terse, and I didn't take the time to read carefully enough, so I'm going to do so with a bit more thought here.
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Originally Posted by Bunnybear
Now, onto my weird problems. I'm a bit shy, so work with me here.
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These aren't weird problems, they're normal ones. Most women deal with very similar things at some time in their lives.
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I need you guys to help me get past this because alot of you don't seem bothered and I don't want to be bothered anymore.
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It's what he does when he's with you, and how he treats you that's important. Don't go digging for dirt unless you want to find some. We all have secrets we want to hide.
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I'm pretty self concious and insecure. If he says someone on tv is pretty, I will get jealous and feel even worse about myself. It doesn't stay with me long, but it does for that moment.
I'm trying really hard to not be jealous over these rather stupid things, so I'm hoping for advice on that part.
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He's with you when he's admiring those women on tv, not with them. He may enjoy looking at them, but he chooses to be with you. There must be something about you that is worthwhile if you are the one he chose.
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The other night we were in bed fooling around... he got me off and so I wanted to return the favor... and he didn't want to. I've never felt so rejected in my life... he never lets me get him off. He seems to prefer porn and his hand... I told him this. He said it wasn't true and that he just wasn't in the mood. So instead, he'd sleep with a hard on til it dies down when he's asleep. 
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Look at what you wrote here. He got you off first. He put giving you pleasure ahead of getting it himself. I think that's probably a rare thing.
As to the second part that does seem a little strange. If it's a pattern, he may have a problem, but it would be his problem, not yours. It's not your job to fix him by having sex with him, which probably wouldn't work anyway.
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I feel like he looks at porn because I won't have sex with him. I'm afraid of sex because of something that has happened to me in the past. But I've been getting closer and closer to going all the way because I want him to get off. I feel like forcing myself just for his sake and I know that's wrong.
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Good, you know that's wrong, and you need to realize it won't change his behavior even if you do. He's still going to look at the porn, and he's still going to masturbate. If that really bothers you that much this might not be the right guy for you, or you might need more time to make sure.
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I have an idea of what it'll feel like.. but it's the pain I am worried about, it was different then too. So I'm curious.. does it hurt for the first time? How badly and for how long?
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I'll let the others talk about first times. I was a lot younger than you and it was a very unpleasant experience, one I'm not ready to talk about outside of therapy, and this isn't about me anyway.
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I have talked to him about this stuff and he tells me that I am wrong. He told me looks at porn because he needs to get off too. But everytime I want to, he doesn't.
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If he won't ever let you get him off, this might be a problem. A healthy sexual relationship between two people should involve the giving and recieving of physical affection of varying levels. Sex usually follows a gradual escalation, allowing the partners to gradually learn about each other. Jumping to sex without going through the intermediate levels might be a mistake.
Talk to him about it. Ask him why he won't let you get him off. This seems a bit off to me; during the brief time I was sexually involved with guys, they seemed to prefer oral sex, and would be happy with a hand job pretty much any time. Then again, I've never had a fulfilling relationship with a man, so you should take my advice with a grain of salt.