Strange Famous

Yeah.

Now... erm, I realise this is going to sound biased, and consider the source and so on... but the guy is a COMPLETE jerk from what I have heard. He apparently hit this kid who I used to work with just cos he *looked* at this girl (lets call her S), and he threatened to punch her best (female) friend in an argument... he basically seems to just be some lout who always goes around fighting, boasting about fights he's had, you know the sort... and she is so, she's such a nice girl, she can be a bit careless, and she is quite flirty I guess, but deep down she is a really cool person, and she is very bright... why would she be getting maried to some thug?

Anyway, so she is.. and I KNOW I never had a chance with her. When we worked together we used to flirt quite a lot, and a lot of times she would seem like she really liked me, but then would kind of make it obvious she didnt when it came to it... I dont even see her that much anymore, but I have to admit

I got this email today from her, and my first thought, I felt really happy and had a big smile on my face, then I read it was an invitation to this engagment party.. and I just kind of had this sinking feeling.

I guessi I know it sjust that cos Im not with anyone right now it makes me fixate on other people instead... but, it was a funny feeling, strange and sad... just, you know - missed opportunities and what might have been. Ive posted a couple of things to do with her on here before - like "does she like me" vs "she doesnt" type things.

It sounds false and self serving I know, but she really could do better, even I would be better for her - with all my faults and being a great big fat fuck as I am - at least I dont go around trying to fight people all the time.

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"Do not tell lies, and do not do what you hate,
for all things are plain in the sight of Heaven. For nothing
hidden will not become manifest, and nothing covered will remain
without being uncovered."

The Gospel of Thomas