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ilovemybindings · 09-15-2004, 09:44 AM

I have been dating this incredible girl for 7 months now, and we've pretty much lived together since day one. I know this sounds a little strange, but you have to understand the connection and I had when we first met was immense. We lived in a small town where there isn't much to do, and both of us were a distance from friends. It caused problems, and we argued a lot. I've always been a guy of one night stands and treating women like shit, but with her she was my world. I loved her in a way I never thought I would allow myself to. But at the same time, I was constatnly afraid I was going to lose her, and it made me act as I would have in the past, ending the relationship, only with her I would realize the mistake I had made and we'd kiss and make up. Now don't get me wrong, it wasn't all me... she has her problems too, and for some reason she loves to fight. And every two months or so, she gets it in her head that she doesn't want what we have and just instantly up and leaves me, no explanation. But she always comes back within the next few days. I love this girl so much, and I have worked on my fear of losing her and havent freaked out and ended the relationship in a long time, but she left me the other day. I am tryign to walk around with my head held high and not seem upset about it, but inside it's killing me. Not being able to kiss her, or sleep next to her, or brush her hair when she gets out of the shower hits me so hard, in a way I never thought it would. But at the same time, and I can't go talk to her about it, because she is so introverted and afraid to express her real feelings. So my questoin is, when she tries to come back to me again, what do I do? Is it worth the nights of getting screamed at for 2 hours over this stupid little shit, or am I hanging on to something that I should be letting go of. I know everyone says only I can answer this question, but I can't. I've never loved anyone before, and I don't know how relatonships are supposed to work. Is fighting this common... are breakups this common between two people. I'm so lost.

09-15-2004, 09:44 AM	#1 (permalink)
ilovemybindings Upright	Is the juice worth the squeeze? I have been dating this incredible girl for 7 months now, and we've pretty much lived together since day one. I know this sounds a little strange, but you have to understand the connection and I had when we first met was immense. We lived in a small town where there isn't much to do, and both of us were a distance from friends. It caused problems, and we argued a lot. I've always been a guy of one night stands and treating women like shit, but with her she was my world. I loved her in a way I never thought I would allow myself to. But at the same time, I was constatnly afraid I was going to lose her, and it made me act as I would have in the past, ending the relationship, only with her I would realize the mistake I had made and we'd kiss and make up. Now don't get me wrong, it wasn't all me... she has her problems too, and for some reason she loves to fight. And every two months or so, she gets it in her head that she doesn't want what we have and just instantly up and leaves me, no explanation. But she always comes back within the next few days. I love this girl so much, and I have worked on my fear of losing her and havent freaked out and ended the relationship in a long time, but she left me the other day. I am tryign to walk around with my head held high and not seem upset about it, but inside it's killing me. Not being able to kiss her, or sleep next to her, or brush her hair when she gets out of the shower hits me so hard, in a way I never thought it would. But at the same time, and I can't go talk to her about it, because she is so introverted and afraid to express her real feelings. So my questoin is, when she tries to come back to me again, what do I do? Is it worth the nights of getting screamed at for 2 hours over this stupid little shit, or am I hanging on to something that I should be letting go of. I know everyone says only I can answer this question, but I can't. I've never loved anyone before, and I don't know how relatonships are supposed to work. Is fighting this common... are breakups this common between two people. I'm so lost.