maleficent

Crushes are perfectly normal and healthy. I don't think it's cheating at all, it's more fantasy than anything else.

When someone crushes on someone else it's not a slight to the other person. You've got no reason to be ashamed, or feel that you aren't good enough for her.

Possessiveness in a relationship is bad, if you can't trust the person you are with, and trust them to come home to you, then you really need to rethink that relationship.

Sounds like you are conficted about your feelings for her.. Take the summer, stay in touch with her, and see how you feel come august.

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