MerKon4

First I must say that I hate the idea behind medication, although I'm not saying don't try it. I think you will be better off with some mental excersise.
I have had many of the same problems you have described. Mine was more along the social lines. I hated interaction in groups and often feared them. If I was to approach someone, as you did in the store, I would have the same after thoughts.
Six weeks ago, my then girlfriend destroyed our 3 year relationship and started sleeping with other guys and told me I was every nasty thing in the book. It was a complete sledge hammer to me and I was considering taking my life over it. After about 2 weeks, something in me changed. I just took a look at the world that I had previously wanted to leave and decided that trying everything wouldn't be as bad as death would have. With out any thought, I step into a crowd of my friends and speak. I went and played paintball a few days ago, and I'm usually the farthest guy back on the field, but now I rush to the front. Someone tried short change me on a job, and without hesitation I got in his face and didn't have any fear about it. I have to say that it has been a wonderfull eye opener. My friends call me a lot now, trying to find out what I'm up to or if I would like to come with them. I'm out doing everything I want.
The basics of what I'm trying to say is simply acknowledge your fears or worries and exploit them. Get out in that field and catch the ball. Whats worse, the possibility of being hit by a ball (you'll heal) or catching it for you team and fans? Even if you got hit by that ball, you still tried, everyone knows that and they will want to help you.

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