I used to think, that if you were really really nice to the girl, and sweet and kind and did everything that women said they wanted their men to do, give them chocolates and flowers and commit to them before sex, that eventually you'd get to date love (and maybe even marry!) the girl. Now I know that, meanwhile, she was fucking biker-dudes to get her jollies, and all those stories about "be sweet and kind" were meant as much to put me in my place, as to fool herself into feeling less guilty about fucking the biker-dudes because she really wanted to believe she was a "better" person than that.
I used to think that getting up early, working hard all day, and fulfilling all the explicit details of my job description would mean that some day I would be promoted, get to do the things I really wanted to do, have enough money and vacation, and maybe even run the company. Now I know that all those stories about how I was supposed to act were made-up, and that meanwhile the bosses were living off of my excess effort and taking advantage of it to reduce their own, and that they said those stories as much to keep me in my place as to assuage their own guilt at having abused the system because they wanted to fool themselves that they were "better" than their actions.
Sound familiar?
Nowadays, I try to manage PERSONAL RELATIONSHIPS rather than to follow the rules of what I'm "supposed" to do. People at work call me arrogant, decisive, direct, unemotional, selfish. And they also hire me and promote me a lot more often than they used to. People I want to date say I'm too aggressive, I don't treat a lady the way a lady "deserves" to be treated. And then they suck my cock and, if I want to, let me cum on their faces.
