Thanks, and you are right..sometimes I get carried away myself, but 10 years..I cannot possibly imagine. I mean, I might go a week without seeing the person I like and I start twitching and sweating.
Anyway, as promised about keeping you guys posted..well, I ended up going to the concert without her ofcourse. I thought of her frequently and how I wish she was there and I couldn't walk away from that night without bringing a piece of it back to her. I sent her a small gift through her best friend with a brief note inside that said "it was great, but the best part was missing... you." Just to let her know that I had her on my mind.
The day she got it(at school), I came down the stairs and saw her running at me and she hugged me for a few seconds. We talked a bit and she seemed happier than ever..I felt amazing. We had class together later the same day. It was the day before our easter break.
After class, we came out of class together, but I started walking ahead of her and she came along as I wanted to notice if she'd follow. She had to wait until 6 and so did I before I would part home. We sat together and we went for ice cream..apparently one of her favorite things to do. On our way to the parlour she bruised her hand on a stair handle and I asked her for it and kissed it where she got hurt... and we held on until we got to our destination. We went back to school and hadn't really had a real conversation yet, but her smile did most of the talking.
Once we got there, some of her friends showed up and she told me to wait for her. I waited..and waited and I waited so long that I started to think she just went home. So I grabbed my stuff and went too because the last train was waiting for me. On my way to the subway, I see her at the entrance with her best friend having a pretty serious conversation and she did not seem well even though she told me the opposite. I tried to slip in a longer goodbye but they insisted on finishing discussing their issues. As I turned she said "we'll talk about it over the break.." doing a phone gesture with her hand. It was all cool and I was on my merry way.
Now I am sitting here ruminating on if I should just be the one to call her or let her try to call me and see if she's really interested. I'm interested also in knowing what happened that day, seeing as we left in a rather sour note. She's a busy girl... has many hobbies, a part time job, soccer pratice, etc. All of this stuff happened tuesday by the way..so should I call her? I read somewhere the rule of thumb was three times and then play the chase or something. Is it?
Thank you for reading the ramblings of a madman so patiently.
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