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I don't know what to do. This has been going on for several months now. Maybe I don't deserve to be in a relationship right now, much less with someone who loves me so much (which I cannot return in the intensity that I receive). But like I said before, it's not like I am unhappy in this relationship, and I don't want to give up K. It's just that these feelings for R come up randomly and that bothers me.
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Harsh words for you from someone that has been there. Get over it.
R left you, she liked the other guy more, and she wanted to let you down easy. You lost your virginity to her and that messes with your head more then anything
trust me I know on that one.
Add to this the guilt over her being sick and you have yourself a wonderful emotional cocktail.
Remember she DUMPED you because she wanted to. She had a choice and you were the loser. Its over and its up to your emotional side to figure that one out.
Listening to violent music helped me when this happened to me, specificly Ministry.