TFP Confessional

I've done, and continue to do some things I'm not proud of.

 

You can't change the past, but you can be in the present and change the future.

 

Paranoia is one of my oldest friends.

 

This afternoon, my wife and I went to Pier One to look at throw pillows. The only thing I really don't like about Pier One is that they refuse to believe we know how to shop unassisted. So, each trip to the store turns into a fencing match, where they keep repeatedly offering to help and we try to keep them away so we can shop in peace and privacy. By the end of the trip, we're using feints and decoy maneuvers to trick them into heading one way while we head off differently.

Today, well...something different happened.

As we were moving through the store, I felt a growing need to let out some gas. As I managed to keep this urge at bay, I could feel that a gas ball was intensifying inside me that had probably already eaten half of my leg. So, I made my way to an unoccupied section of the store and quietly relieved the pressure. QUIETLY, I assure you. However, the fog that enveloped me was fairly toxic, and I knew from experience that some solitary confinement was necessary before I could rejoin my wife.

It was at that moment that "Melissa" strolled over and asked for the 17th time if she could help me. The look on her face is something I will carry with me for the rest of my life.

 

I have an XBIL, still a friend, who would intentionally fart bomb annoying people. Jim is a small guy, maybe 5'5" on a good day and 100 pounds.

On a flight the guy next to him had the aisle arm rest and hogged the one to his right. Jim got POd, tucked himself into ball with his ass pointed toward The Arm Rest Hog, pretended to be asleep, and let fly.

 

I think about killing myself daily. Some days, I plan it all out. Helps keep the demon at bay. Plus, it keeps the voices in my head busy.

 

This is totally Fd up, please get some help. My Bil, shot himself, never again to enjoy the ups and downs that make life so interesting and worth living. 25 years ago, his children and all of us that loved him still miss him today.

 

I think about doing it, but I never would. I'd only end up here again. I firmly believe I killed myself last lifetime (yeah, I'm one of "those" people.) The urge to do it was so strong at times that I nearly did. Fortunately, I have a woman who I couldn't drive away no matter how hard I tried. She finally got me to see I needed medication. Been on anti-depressants since 2000. They work well but that doesn't mean I still don't think about doing it. Again, I NEVER would. Thanks for your concern, I appreciate it.

 

Well I am not one of " those" and I have no idea what's on the other side for me. All I do know is what I have seen in this life. So I grab all the happiness I can and work through the mental crap and bad times. Mostly with the help of my loved ones and alcohol. Because this Life is worth living and going out to get it. Good luck @MrMD069

 

I must confess that I shouldn't be using this meme anymore, as my daughter has grown considerably.

But dammit, it's just so much fun!

 

I was passive aggressive to a friend on facebook today after getting my feelings bent and also to the same person in a text. Not proud of that, neither though do I feel like apologizing to this person. Guess I'm simply a bitch today. *shrug*

 

So many things...

Hmmm.

(Isn't it annoying when folks are vague?)

 

Not enabling, but everybody on Facebook is passive-aggressive. Everybody thinks your comments are openly and obliquely about them and they default to butthurt, which breeds defensiveness and guilt. Friendships have been flushed over comments about food pictures. Facebook is the devil!

 

I do NOT Facebook!
Anyone else in my company.

 

Never had it, never will.

 

I created an account (to have one if needed for some reason) but immediately deactivated the account and have never used it.

In a previous discussion, I noted that I met with FB government relations staff several years ago and their ignorance was only surpassed by their arrogance.

 

I used to but not in 2 years. Not going back, EVER.