QOTD #84: What have you learned about yourself lately?

Oh hell, me too! Stewing, chewing--too much thinking--then finally, doing!
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I read a bit about the Pomodoro method and downloaded an Android app. Going to try it out when I get the first four screeners for the new season of Shameless in the next couple of weeks. I tend to panic and waste time when a bunch of work is dropped like that. Am hoping that better structure will lead to a better work experience.

 

Another that I have not mastered, self-sabotage. I keep coming back to it, get brave-ish and try to kick it, seem to be kicking it and wham-o, realize I'm fighting it again. Mostly it is personal, not work-related, but the behaviour is so unwelcome when I realize that drastic measures are now called for. Ugh. I'm boring myself right now.

 

I nearly always have music/the radio on in the background. I only turn it off when I'm doing something really complicated. I rarely find it distracting.

 

That I raised some pretty amazing daughters and that no matter my fuckups as a parent they respect and care for me beyond what I probably deserve.
Being a parent is pretty much a fly by the seat of your pants situation especially when you didn't have the greatest examples going in.
Yeah, I got lucky to have kids born smart, independent and who stand up for themselves but that never meant my choices as a parent would work out.
Somehow between me and my ex we managed to do better then I ever would have imagined.

 

I recently read some old love letters and what not from several serious relationships. At the time, I didn't know why they failed. Now I can see the self-hatred I had spilled over into those relationships and poisoned them. While I don't hate myself any longer, it was still a wake up call.

Last marriage doesn't count!

 

My ability to not see what is precisely in front of me boggles my mind. It's denial writ large and I really need to keep on top of it always.

 

I can't; but apparently I can still sell my skillset and competence to an employer.

While my ego is doing just fine and I believe that I'm good at what I do, my confidence at being able to prove that at an employment interview hasn't been doing so well. I accepted a medium crappy position because I didn't want to deal with the job search crap.

Seems I have 2 entities fighting for my services. While the drama sucks, my ego and confidence are doing pretty well.

 

That I work too much

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