Blasphemy.

I don't even know where to start.

A few weeks ago I told my ex that I want to go back out with her very soon, I didn't know when though, but soon. She totally agreed to this. I love this girl, I can never stop thinking about her, and she is far too good for me.

I wake up this morning thinking about asking her up. Let me tell you I was in a good mood, but it was quick to stop. I get a message telling me from my ex that last night she got drunk and made out with a friend of mine.

To add to my little character theme, I am a very jealous guy. This definatey killed me inside and hurt me a lot.

In between this my mom loses both her cockatiels, which makes her quite sad because they were pretty much her babies. Hense making me more 'emoish' and sad.

But to top this off, I get told that another ex of mine...she is moving soon.... how can I explain. She went and had sex with my brother on Friday. My brother knew who she was, and what has happened between the two of us.

This is killing me. Fuck, all of this is absolutely killing me. I can't even think correct. I can't eat, I can't talk right anymore, I can't even sleep. I keep hyperventilating and crying. I don't know what to do or even think. I'd absolutely love to move out of this town and leave all my troubles behind, but I can't do that obviously. I can't even look at my brother anymore. I confronted the both of them today about, I made my brother cry. What kind of brother would do that though?

I don't even give a shit about the ex that is moving. I just want the first girl back. I want her back so bad. I don't blame her for anything she does or decides with. I'm sure I'd do the same. I just miss her and love her with everything I have. I've ruined everything. I had it all and i've lost it all just because I am a stupid idiot. I can't beleive myself. I've put her through so much shit while I just went and fucked around and ruined it.

I'm sorry for being annoying, I don't expect anybody to read this or even reply to it. I just needed to talk. Thanks for your time.?

SinisterMotives

I'm so sorry to hear about your woes, Blasphemy. It's devastating when bad things happen in threes and you feel like you have nowhere to turn. I really don't know what to say except it's always darkest before the dawn. It has been my experience that when a bunch of negative experiences overwhelm me at once, better times are just around the corner. Try to keep your chin up and roll with it.

SonnyBono

I don't know the circumstances, of course, but make sure you are loving this girl for the right reasons. Don't put her on a pedistal, making her the only source of ligth in your life. Just something to consider. Good times are ahead. No worries man.

st33lr4t

think about this for a moment. you love this girl to death. yet this girl you love seems to think its ok to mess around on you. why do you love this girl again?

not that i know all the details.

TheOne

not trying to be mean or anything but how is she messing around on him when they arn't together right now. does she not have the right to do what she will while they are not together?

AfterBurn

you're not stupid, everybody makes mistakes. Eventually things will work out for the best. I suggest maybe talking with the 1st girl and have her explain the situation, because you know, stuff happens when you're drunk..

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wonderwench

The operative term is "Ex". This girl seems to take the ex part seriously, and is behaving as though she is emotionally unattached.

If I were you, I would not make a quick emotional decision. I'd wait until the heat of the past couple of days has cooled off and then think rationally about what her behavior really means to you.

Slauncha Man

First of all, she'd been drinking and she was single. She did nothing wrong, and besides, all she did was make out with him. If you really love her, get back with her. Just make sure it doesn't happen while you're with her.

As far as your brother... that's pretty low. I'd just stay away from that for a while, allow yourself to cool down, and then tell your brother it was wrong. As far as the girl, forget about her. She's got nothing to offer you except for heartbreak.

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amonkie

Just want to clarify, there are two girls involved in the picture?

My interpretation:

Girl 1- first ex mentioned, and is the one you want to get back together with

Girl 2- second ex, who is moving, that slept with your brother.

Don't really know what to say until I'm clear on both those points

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Redgirl

OK, I know that your brother sleeping with your ex might be a little strange, but she's your EX. So if your brother wants your sloppy seconds, so what? She's not the one you want anyway, right?

You want the ex that made out with some dude when she was drunk. Well, even though you've been talking, she is still not your gf. So what she does has no bearing on your future relationship. You could have been making out with some other girl at the same time and that would have been a-ok, too.

I think you are overcomplicating things, sweetie. Just really consider what's relevant here: you love your brother, he's important to you. You love your ex, she's important to you. That is all that matters right now. Let everything else go.

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st33lr4t

i meant it in the lines that if she cared about him the way he cares about her she wouldnt be out messing around with another guy even if they are not together. of course she is free to do what she wants.