Mephex

why does it hurt so ?
The key here, is to let it go.
But I don't want to, it's the love that I miss.
Yes, love. But you'll love again, I promise you this.
It's just not worth it, I can't take the pain.
Pain ? * chuckles * You're not feeling pain, you're obsessing over her not taking you back again.
Whatever it is, I want it to stop.
You're acting foolish, you're low, climb back on to the top.
How can I do that ? There's nothing to hold on to.
You need to look within, find hope, in YOU.
There is nothing to find, I've looked, I'm sure.
You're wrong you know, think of the past, how happy you were.
Bah, I know, but I was just so naive.
Well, in a way, it's true. But you had goals, you believed.
So you think, that in life, I am all that I need ?
Exactly, my son, I think you're beginning to see.
It's just that we belong together, and she disagrees.
You know better then that, she's set you free.
I don't want to be free, I just want her back.
No you don't, if she was at your side again, you'd cut her no slack.
That's not true, I'd give her the world.
It may be nice to think that way, but you smothered her, she's not that type of girl.
Then if I can't have her, I'll just end my life.
I won't stop you from failing, but I'll remind you, she would never have been your wife.
So should I decide, to hit the reset button, I'd be cheating myself?
As well as the others, your family, the ones that look up to you, and especially your mother.
Yes, * sigh * I know, I can't let them down.
True, but you need to live for yourself, exchange a smile for that frown.
I see my attitude is changing now.
Then my work is almost done.
I really wish, I had you here still.
I'm sorry for that, but life is unpredictable.
I just don't understand, why your life was cut short.
It wasn't, I did my job, and my time had come.
Well, I've got to get back to work, I'm happy we had this talk.
I am too, don't worry, don't hurry, remember to just walk.
Thanks again, I'll be there when I'm due.
Just remember that when you're lost, that I'm here for you.

Dixie

what a beautiful idea. thank you for sharing this part of yourself.

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talk is cheap, so i buy every word you said.
scared me half to death, now i'm half dead.

*Nikki*

That was simply one of the best things I have ever read.

Wonderful