I mean, there's just so many variables. And god knows people only show their best pictures of themselves on the internet

i guess it just comes down to trust and faith

it takes a suprising amount of courage to take that emotional leap of faith if youve got trust issues.

learned that the hard way in my last relationship.

I mean now in retrospect I can see where I went wrong and she went wrong but still it sucks

c'est la vie

hopefully I can use what i've learned to avoid such a mistake next time

it's hard to step away from your own relationship to analyse it though

I think it's been easier for me. I don't believe i've ever fallen in love

is it strange to look forward to that?

I keep searching for that feeling. I felt it once before, an unrequited crush in high school. I never confessed to her but I've never gotten that feeling with the other girls I've met

I wonder where she is now, and what she's doing.

doesn't matter i guess

I doubt i'd have the courage to confront her after all these years. lol

Better to find another girl that I can feel the same way for. I'm sure i've got better standards for that now anyways

acutally I have a date tommorow with a very cute girl.

I hope she's as smart as she is cute

So I've got this egg timer on my desk

it keeps track of time very well

i've gotten very good at ignoring it :D

like a lot of other things

POST 2222!

I like weird numbers like that.

Chinese beliefs say that consequtive numbers are lucky

like 8888...

but I also am good at ignoring post it notes, signs, and alarm clocks

i'm good at eating, sleeping, playing, and relaxing.

i'm also a really good worker, because I seperate playtime and worktime.

when I work, I work hard.

p.s. CSfilm watch out

And I try my best to finish what I start

I'm also pretty good at telling when i'm throwing good money after bad.

That's pretty much all I want to think of

but there's still more posting to do

because I love a challenge.

so let's see if I can get to 2250 before midnight

ok next post

and one more

this is another post.

post quality is down because i'm posting quick

wow it's another one

batter up!!!