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Originally posted by GuttersnipeXL
As far as this being a serious thread though, why do you refer to your attempts as "woderfully grotesque stories"? I don't get it.
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Well right off the bat you come here and tell everyone on the board that it can't be that hard to commit suicide, if you really wanted to? Do you know how wrong that is to tell people with suicidal thoughts?! I've had to put up with people like you my whole life! Guess what? Part of the whole getting better deal is to try NOT to kill yourself, and then people like you come along and act like "oh they're not serious, otherwise they would have done it by now" so don't talk to me about being serious when you post messages like that.
I'm glad you didn't tell anybody you helped save that. I'm sorry I was harsh about your friends that was out of line but jeez I know people who have stepped out in front of a train too, but I don't tell other people, oh by the way try this because it's fool proof. Why didn't you just post about helping save your friends that you could? That would have been alot more helpful and let everyone know you cared. I know it was to be difficult losing friends and not knowing why they did that too themselves but don't get mad and take it out on other people.
And why do I say "wonderfully grotesque stories" because as a real person that's how I talk and sometimes just typing shit in doesn't convey a personality at all. And I'm being sarcastic which I also can't show on a computer, my stories aren't wonderful at all. I didn't have to wait till I as in college to become depressed I have been since I was 11 yrs. old I have a genetic disordor, I have a disease! Try watching an 11 year old girl in a mental instituion, the best way I can describe that is wonderfully grostesque. It's so disturbing I'll never be able to get over all the stuff I've been through.
It's like having cancer, I can't just think about being happy really hard and it will go away. It never will! I will be on large quanitites of medication my entire life and I still have serve relapses. I'm now seriously considering electroshock therapy, to help me. It's nobodies fault I'm like this but when people minimilize everything I've had to work towards and fight towards my entire life, I can't take it! Don't belittle people you don't know!
Yes it would be easy enough for me to kill myself, I have the scars, internal liver damage, heart damage, brain damage for that matter. But I'm trying NOT too do that! Don't you understand? Feel lucky that you HAVE the ability to pull yourself out of funks. Some don't and get to feel like freaks of nature their entire lives!