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I stayed out until 6am
I drank coffee and talked till about 5:30
We called it all off earlier in the day
I met up with my dad and drank a little
I was kind of bonding experience
He came and drank with my friends
We out drank him
He wasn’t much help with the separation
No one was
Everyone was more interested in the drinking
Eating bad food and listening to The Village People
I wish she could have been there
She wouldn’t have any fun
My dad gave me 50 bucks in an attempt to be kind
We had our Irish toasts and our Irish drinks
I’m Italian
It all seemed natural
It all seemed to not be worth anything
If at some point I get my life back together
I won’t have anyone I care about to share it with
I get a new job and my smile back
Move into a new room with a new sound system
She won’t ever see any of it
She won’t ever have to tell me she loves me anymore
And tell me to fuck off
She won’t have to worry about staying the night
She won’t have to worry about spending time with me
I won’t have to worry about angering her parents
I won’t have to worry about buying her things
And taking her places
I won’t have to worry about saying I love you
And telling her how sorry I am
No one will ever have to ask how were doing
No one will have to ask if we are getting back together
No one will have to suffer through seeing us kiss
No one will ever have to turn the other cheek when we argue in public
No more uncomfortable silences and conversations with X’s
One summer
I lost my mind
20 years old
No more thinking
No more feelings
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heavy is the head that wears the crown
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