I quit drinking almost a year ago. I used to drink to be drunk. I missed so much of 4 years of top quality education in NYC because I was sitting alone in my apartment getting wasted. I gained 80 pounds and changed my whole life. When I graduated college, I drank over 12 gallons of tequilla in the first year. My marriage was going nowhere.
In the year since I stopped drinking I lost 80 pounds. I started new avenues of art and action. I bought a home. It's been the best year of my marriage. My career is moving along quickly.
I loved to drink. I really did. I just don't know if it ever helped me. I never used a 12 step program to quit, I just plain stopped. I still have the desire to drink, but I hope to one day quash it.
I recently read 'Following the Equator' by Twain and he has some to say on temperance in that text. Basically, he suggests you don't just stop drinking, you learn to stop desiring the drink. I have no idea how to do that...
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