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just over 5 months clean & sober here.......i quit drinking a few years back, but kept on doin' drugs until march of this year.
the only way i was able to finally make a real go at being sober was being confronted with losing everything that means anything to me in life. i knew that if i picked up again, i wouldn't come back for a while, and it'd all be gone.
it sounds like you're running into that wall with some things you value - your plans, driving. if you think you REALLY ARE alcoholic, believe me, at some point, if you let it run its course, you WILL lose everything. it's just the way we drunks & junkies are - really have to get hit with a 2x4 to comprehend what is obvious to others.
i wish you the best, drop me a pm if you're feelin' tested.......
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-iggy
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