Lots of people have integrity, lots of them don't. Many who don't have good intentions but have no control over their impulses.
You don't need those people. I'm sure there are wonderful things about her but the bottom line is that she's obviosuly not ready to settle down. If it's not a challenge, she goes looking for one. Is that really who you want to be with?
The important thing is to realize that this was HER, not YOU. Anything you could have done to keep her around would probably betray your nature and eventually, that always falls apart anyway. You did nothing wrong and ultimately, neither did she. You just had different ideas about how things would go. Let it go and move on. never stop looking inward and trying to improve yourself for yourself - the right woman will love who you already are and it's all good from there. Whatever you do, don't turn this into a "women suck" vibe... that'll only stall you indefinitely from the happiness you seem to be looking for and when you snap out of that, you'll feel dumb for the lost time. They don't all suck, just some of them. Just like guys. We're all human.
For what it's worth, I've been there and I'd bet most everyone who has read this thread has, too, and we know how you're feeling. It's not fun. As someone else said, find a release that feeds your soul and the right girl will find you. Just... you know... don't forget to say hi to her when she's making eyes at you in the checkout line, ok?
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