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You meet a girl. You like the girl. The girl likes you. You begin to date. Things click into place. You spend a lot of time getting to know each other. You have everything in common. You let down your firewall. You fall in love. She falls in love. It is amazing for the two of you to have met. You become each other's favorite person.


She stops calling. She stops coming over. You ask what's wrong and she says nothing. She doesn't call. No explanation is forthcoming. Weeks pass. When you calls she treats you like a nuisance.


After a while, you get the point, whatever the point is. Which is to say, you don't get the point, but you realize she's never going to tell you, so you decide to stop banging your head against the wall. You stop calling. She doesn't mind.


A month or two down the road you see her with another guy, holding hands, laughing, kissing, dating. She looks at him the same way she used to look at you. She sees you and say hi, smiles, is very friendly, as if nothing is peculiar, nothing is ambiguous, everything is as it should be. Something in your chest cringes up and tries to hurt you.


You go home and stare at the floor and cry a little. Not too much, because if you start you won't stop. You wake up the next morning and decide to think about her one last time. There are no bad things so you you just think about the good things.


You wonder if something is wrong with you.

You select all files and hit 'delete'. You put your firewall back up. You do your best to never think about her again.


Wish me luck.