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Old 06-29-2011, 10:15 AM   #21 (permalink)
Strange Famous
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I would admit that I do suffer from periods of depression, but it isnt all the time. I am not sure that there is any other way. Certainly when I look at my mother, on anti depressants, it doesnt seem to make her happy, just unable to cope without them. I dont want to be on some medication to change my mood or alter my feelings. I think I just accept sometime I get negative and angry and disengaged with everything.

On the weight thing, I think it is true that it knocks my self confidence a lot. Sometimes I dont care about how I look, other times I feel ashamed to walk into a room or for people to look at me. I guess that is something that is easier to do something about, but Ive been complaining about it for years.

I decided to do something about that side of things anyway. I wrote out a meal plan for a whole month and have just sort of told myself "just stick to this for one month, see if it makes a difference and if it does make a difference see if its worth it"... so far four days but if I go a month and lose 20 lbs or something, maybe I will start to feel better in myself, or at least have the motivation to lose enough weight to not feel like a fat vicious pig. Obvously I cant help having a big scar in the middle of my head. But maybe that isnt so bad. Harry Potter had one and it didnt hold him back.
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