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Friendships are based on what they can do for me. As soon as they become worthless they are no longer in my life. Luckily I'm male, so this isn't a huge change. As guys usually only have friends for specific activities. Once a friend becomes useless I manipulate them into thinking we no longer can pursue that activity for one reason or another. I've gotten extremely good at fake excuses.

So my current friendships are all based on activities that I enjoy.

Since, oh about 14 years old I've gotten good at pretending to be sympathetic. My family hasn't noticed. They thought it was depression until I mastered it.

I actually recently told two of my family members that I think I'm a sociopath and they didn't believe me! So good is my illusion of empathy.

I actually get treated better than most people because I can mirror exactly what they want in a friend. It's easier to see as a sociopath I think. Till I get what I want anyways. This isn't as bad as it sounds, often "friendships" from the outside are fairly "normal." I let them down easy because I don't like to burn bridges, never know when I might need to call on them again, or if they become useful again.

(Yes I have to admit I'm enjoying this thread.)

But none of this is my fault. I was born or raised this way. I don't think there's anything I can do. Right now I'm trying to find other sociopaths on the web and see if doctors have helped them or if there's any going back.

Probably the suckiest part of being a sociopath is I'll never experience love the same way you do. To me its just a word I have no idea of its meaning. To me it means "extremely useful."