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I don't know. Everyone is saying "do something", "make it happen". Make what happen? Do what? I mean, sorry but I'm not just going to go bag groceries or change careers. I am what I am. When my heart leads me towards something, I go for it. I don't just thrust myself out into the world and seize the first opportunity that throws itself at me.
I just believe we all go through rough patches. And I'm in one, a particularly difficult one, that's lasting quite some time. And really, to those who tell me my ex isn't coming back, well, there's really no way for you to know that so I'm not sure where you're getting your information.
But I don't want to sound ungrateful. I do really appreciate all the advice thrown my way. But I just can't relate to the whole "get out there and make it happen" approach. I need more specific direction, personal direction that relates specifically to me as an individual. So I just have to listen to my heart.
I've been able to sell enough of my belonging to get by for another month, so I'm gonna see what happens. Right now, I'm not being led anywhere, so I'm going to just wait. I don't think there's anything wrong with waiting. Besides, I'm terribly heartbroken and lonely right now and just don't feel too functional. Thanks everyone.
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