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I have spent most of my life depressed. I am having serious anger issues to the point my wife (the kids step-mom)has decided to leave and take my children with her. I think she's doing the right thing. I haven't become physically abusive...yet. I have said some some pretty mean things to my kids (14 and 16) when angry that are simply not ok.
Suicidal thoughts? Yeah in a big way. I'm sitting here with a loaded handgun. The only thing stopping me is that I know it means a life of total mental anguish for my kids. My wife begged me to go get help. I don't want to. I no longer want face the day to day struggles. I just want it all to be over. I left the house as she was calling the sheriffs office. They just called my cell and left a voice mail. I'm tired. I'm to scared to pull the trigger, but I really do believe that in the long run that's what's best for everybody. I don't think I have it in me to pull myself back up, and I can't think of any reason I would want to.
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