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Thank you all for the replies. From what I've gathered, it seems the general consensus is:
a) I need to not take relationships as serious as I previously have in thinking I may marry the next girl.
b) Need to build my self-confidence and get out there more
c) Not me so judgmental on a woman's appearance.
d) Take chances and get hurt, but get used to it sorta.
e) And just change what I've been doing overall and my views on having what I deemed the perfect life.
The conflicted points I'm seeing is the getting laid part. Some seem to not be all about that, and some seem to think it might help.
But anyways, I read all of the replies that where available at Noon eastern (but did not get the chance to reply), and I've already started making some changes. After reading the replies, I became a bit motivated to make a change, and asked a heavier-set girl that had been messaging me and I've been ignoring on the dating site if she wanted to finally hang out. So we ended up hanging out, was cool at first but all we talked about was sexual things such as boobs and stuff; seemed like the only thing we could talk about. Anyways, we ended up going to an old warehouse I have the key to and we did some sexual stuff, then I got so horny that we had sex (w/condom!). It was disgusting. I don't know what I was thinking. Not only did the sex suck because everytime I went to go in she'd close her legs naturally, but the smell of her vagina-stuff filled the whole room and it was gross. And the worst part is, she enjoyed it and said she can't wait till we do it again. Ugh!!! With that said, it really makes me appreciate how sex was with the ex. I've always been against "experienced" women because it seemed gross, but after last night, I realized how much, much, much greater it was. And not sure if it depends on the person, but she didn't seem to have really "smelt", so going down on her was fun and not gross. Too bad we only had sex twice...
But enough of that, that's over with. Otherwise, I tried a little more different things last night. For example, I randomly friend requested a hot girl that was on my buddy's friend list that he knew in high school, with a silly/creepy personal message telling her straight up, "Hi. You don't know me, but I find you very attractive, hence me sending you this friend request. If it's too creepy, yell at Hank (note: my friend)." Anyways, she accepted my friend's requested and said it wasn't creepy and that life is all about socializing. Not that somethings going to happen with me and her, we live way too far away, but it's just nice in general to have been able to randomly (sorta) approach an attractive woman and have her give me the time of day to even talk back to me.
I also IMed a girl that I hadn't talked to in a year or so, we used to play tennis with my brother and his girlfriend. But she was really happy to chat with me again, and she sent my a myspace friend request. She seems more like the friend type, but I need friends too.
So, I'm hoping little things like these are steps in the right direction. Minus screwing the chick I had no attraction to. Guess I'm learning.
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