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I would also say hormones.

Depression is not one day of the blues. It is ongoing, and it doesn't just go away.

Similarly, it would help if you knew what kind of mental illness your family has suffered from. Some are more heritable than others. And mental illness does not automatically equal insanity or craziness. Depression, for instance, does not typically lead to insanity, and is in fact pretty easily managed with medication.

Xerxys, I don't know where you get the idea that antidepressants are energy-sucking. They're quite the opposite, actually, at least in my case. When I am on antidepressants, I have loads more energy than I do with the depression, more purpose, and I get more done.

And this sort of behavior doesn't fit with bipolar disorder--an episode of mania isn't one of anger, but one of invincibility, and the feeling that one can do anything. The flipside of that--the depressive episode--is the lowest low ever experienced. I had to watch someone I love struggle mightily with this disorder. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. Let's not throw the term around lightly--it's a very serious thing.

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