You know im having exams next week but i cant concentrate for 5 minutes. Really i do want to pass this year otherwise im fucked. Ive been sitting around the house without going outside for the few past days so im terribly lonely at times. Maybe i could conctrate for a few hours if my life was more exiting. But now i just read parts and like 5 mins later i already forgot it cause my mind seems to disrupt me with other things. This may sound weird but if ill put my head blank i surely will have a panic afterwards. I just thought of this to go study later tonight after dinner or atleast some distraction. The bad thing is..i know what's wrong with me, i don't need medication to find friends or people to hang out do i? I have thought to commit suicide a few times, but you know suicide is an easy way out of escaping temp problems i figured. But ive been feeling like this all my life. My life has been full of lies because i tend to lie to get some interest in me...Sigh..I truly feel pathetic about myself sometimes.
Sorry had to rant somewhere.
