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To the boyfriend - you are lying to yourself. I hope you are able to realize this before it's too late to turn back. If you need a substance to get you through the day, you need to change something in your life so that is not a need anymore.
To the girlfriend - When you love someone that much, it's heart wrenching to let go. But you are an individual and this is eating away at you. You resent him for it. Apart from the fact that we're talking about drug use, you're not happy with it and he's fine with it. You clash. This is at the heart of the problem between you two. Why are you taking coke as well? I don't understand. Right now, the best thing you can do for yourself, is get away, and clean up yourself. Know who you want to be, on your own. There's not much you can do for him - he has to help himself.
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Whether we write or speak or do but look
We are ever unapparent. What we are
Cannot be transfused into word or book.
Our soul from us is infinitely far.
However much we give our thoughts the will
To be our soul and gesture it abroad,
Our hearts are incommunicable still.
In what we show ourselves we are ignored.
The abyss from soul to soul cannot be bridged
By any skill of thought or trick of seeming.
Unto our very selves we are abridged
When we would utter to our thought our being.
We are our dreams of ourselves, souls by gleams,
And each to each other dreams of others' dreams.
Fernando Pessoa, 1918
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