I figured I'd post this here because my own weirdness is starting to bother me... and that takes a lot.
Since I've been back from Afghanistan ('06) I often experience a real sense of uneasiness when I'm walking or sitting around and don't have something pressing against my torso.
I miss the body armor. I got used to it. The weight, the rigidity, the silly sense of security you get from the military's mandatory IBA carapace after years of wear.
I'm like a hermit crab without a shell here.
I sit firmly against whatever desk I'm at whether in class or at home. My car seat belt is always cinched down tight. I find myself with my palm pressed against my stomach a lot. I feel like my insides are gonna fall out. I feel exposed, vulnerable. Often I can't sleep at night without ramming a pillow against my guts.
What's wrong with me and what should I do?
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It's bad. I'm staring at the listings on
BulletproofMe.com like a little kid looking for his security blanket.