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Originally Posted by Halx
So do you identify yourself as a lesbian? Bi? Who do you carry on relationships with?
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Hi, Halx! Well, I knew that I was not attracted to boys very early in my childhood. Even before my teens I had crushes on other girls but because my family is so homophobic, I would never dare let my feelings show. I tried to be a “normal” daughter/sister in the presents of my family, but the more I tried the more I realized that I was lesbian. When I was 19 my father set me up with his best friends son and suggested that, “we were meant for each other” and that “he’d make the perfect husband for me.” The rest of the family mostly agreed and for the sake of their feelings, I played along with it thinking that I may be bi after all? It was a huge mistake! Two years (or almost two years) of living hell confirmed that I was certainly not bi, and I narrowly escaped getting married to him!
My relationships with women over the years were mostly short term and it wasn’t really serious love but rather like…um… “Friendly fuck buddies,” I guess you could say, or perhaps like boy meets girl dating only its girl meets girl. Although I think it is a bit harder for women to meet other women locally (at least for me it is) as compared boys meeting girls. I never cared much for “finding love online” and I don’t hang out in gay bars. I was always particular of girls I intended to sleep with and I would never just hop in bed with the first girl who was willing. I have to at least get to know her first, and good hygiene is an absolute must. I’m currently in a relationship with a girl that I met in a rather unique way but it’s a long story and belongs in another thread. Anyway, I hope this answers your questions and if not, just ask away. I don’t mind talking about it. I’m not nearly this outspoken in person, though. I’m actually shy on the subject in the company of people I’m around daily; except for friends that I trust and who already know.