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Jenna · 05-09-2008, 07:41 AM

Genetically, I got screwed over. Both of my parents are overweight, and thus, so am I. I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me, but it's hard being a girl in a society that is so attracted to thinness, yet the majority of people are overweight. It just fucks with your mind.

I just think it's hypocritical of people to make assumptions when they haven't walked a mile in a persons shoe. I think people maybe need to be a little bit more sensitive and not generalize.

Losing weight has always been a battle of mine, because I want a quick fix. Which, I lost 20lbs, but within a year, I gained it all back. I've kind of told myself that I'm not going to give up what I enjoy in life - which is relaxing at times, having good food, being with people I enjoy, etc. If that means that I'm overweight, then so be it. However, I do want to get in a "healthier" routine of things. I'll never be a size 0, but I just want to try to get healthier, not necessarily skinny.

I think things would be a lot easier if I didn't have such a terrible view on fatness, dieting, etc. My mom was awful, and still is. I mean constant passive aggressiveness about my weight. It really does damage to kids when their parents are constantly complaining about their weight, and by the time you turn 12 your mom is encouraging you to do extreme diets. I used to say that I didn't want children because they'd just be fat like me.

And no, not every person who is overweight eats a ridiculous amount. I was always the person who ate less than my friends but who was bigger than them. I remember when I played ice-hockey, I'd practice 3 times during the week (1 1/2 hour practices) and play 2 games a weekend. I was REALLY working out at that point. I mean my clothes would be drenched in sweat by the time I was done with practice and games, and I ate the same as I was before. I lost a total of 10 lbs during the season, which lasted from September to April. It was SO disheartening.

And to ramble on even more... I realized that my weight will NEVER be good enough. I look back on pictures of myself when I was younger, and weighed less, and I think... "Damn I looked good there!" but at the time, I thought I was SO overweight and SO ugly.

05-09-2008, 07:41 AM	#75 (permalink)
Jenna Psycho Location: Wisconsin	Genetically, I got screwed over. Both of my parents are overweight, and thus, so am I. I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me, but it's hard being a girl in a society that is so attracted to thinness, yet the majority of people are overweight. It just fucks with your mind. I just think it's hypocritical of people to make assumptions when they haven't walked a mile in a persons shoe. I think people maybe need to be a little bit more sensitive and not generalize. Losing weight has always been a battle of mine, because I want a quick fix. Which, I lost 20lbs, but within a year, I gained it all back. I've kind of told myself that I'm not going to give up what I enjoy in life - which is relaxing at times, having good food, being with people I enjoy, etc. If that means that I'm overweight, then so be it. However, I do want to get in a "healthier" routine of things. I'll never be a size 0, but I just want to try to get healthier, not necessarily skinny. I think things would be a lot easier if I didn't have such a terrible view on fatness, dieting, etc. My mom was awful, and still is. I mean constant passive aggressiveness about my weight. It really does damage to kids when their parents are constantly complaining about their weight, and by the time you turn 12 your mom is encouraging you to do extreme diets. I used to say that I didn't want children because they'd just be fat like me. And no, not every person who is overweight eats a ridiculous amount. I was always the person who ate less than my friends but who was bigger than them. I remember when I played ice-hockey, I'd practice 3 times during the week (1 1/2 hour practices) and play 2 games a weekend. I was REALLY working out at that point. I mean my clothes would be drenched in sweat by the time I was done with practice and games, and I ate the same as I was before. I lost a total of 10 lbs during the season, which lasted from September to April. It was SO disheartening. And to ramble on even more... I realized that my weight will NEVER be good enough. I look back on pictures of myself when I was younger, and weighed less, and I think... "Damn I looked good there!" but at the time, I thought I was SO overweight and SO ugly. Last edited by Jenna; 05-09-2008 at 08:04 AM..