It started a while ago after seeing a counselor because I realized I definitely have emotional issues- I don't seem to have any. I am empathetic to people and their situations, I am caring, I am not that bad... but I don't ever get emotionally involved in relationships. During counseling I would get fed up with the counselor's obvious questions, and start answering her next three questions. I just got fed up because she was just asking me the exact same questions I ask myself, and giving me advice I had already tried. This isn't the first time, in high school I saw a counselor, not regularly, but the same thing would happen. Over all it came down to, "You are very thorough when you make decisions, and that way, you will not become anxious over situations."

"You're broken, and you don't want to be fixed."

Late last year while having a discussion about consciousness and the things we are unconscious about, my friend just stepped back and said, "Augi, don't ever do 'shrooms. With a mind like yours, you will convince yourself that anything you think of is real. It'd be like watching a building slowly explode."

What would be really fun is if instead of my mind I convinced but other peoples' minds.

I'm no genius. I don't brag. Why do other people praise my mind while I rail against it so? Why can't I get as involved with women around me as I once did? I want to go back to those love-sick high-school days of crushes and Valentines, and things that today would make me vomit.