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C.S. Lewis was a great writer and thinker. He was my last stronghold against losing my faith, towards the end (and I was very, very into Christianity)... but in the end, even his arguments couldn't hold me. That doesn't mean I think Christianity is bullshit -- on the contrary, I have a lot of respect for it, and its true adherents (of which I know very few). But I just can't believe anymore, and I'm not sure that I want to.

If I were to believe again, though (or if you were), I'd say that you've pretty much nailed the foundation of Christianity. You're looking past the bullshit and trying to get to the essence. Very few Christians ever do that, in my opinion. I think it's the seeking that counts, not the end result... so just keep on truckin'.

P.S. If you're really into reading/seeking, you might want to check out Thomas Merton. He had a lot of power in my intellectual Christian life... I recommend The Seven Storey Mountain, or No Man is an Island.

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And think not you can direct the course of Love;
for Love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.
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