First off: Thank you all for your responses!
My boyfriend and I are trying to work through this. It's been almost 2 months since I first confronted him, but I've never spoken about it to him until now. I think my resentment was building up for those past two months.
On the other hand, we have been talking about it openly this past week and I feel like things are a little more clear. I know that he's upset that he made a mistake. He's apologized so much that I'm starting to feel like he really regrets it. Sorry in the morning.. and a sincere sorry in evening. I also know that my self esteem is now shot to death and it's only up to me (not up to him) to build it back up. We both agreed that it's something that we have to work on. He says he'll do anything to help remind me that I'm not what I think I am (ugly, grotesque, *insert something nasty and gross here*) but that I'm beautiful and freakin awesome.
Since then, he's deleted the pictures and he hasn't done anything of that sort. I just hate the feeling that -you never know-
. I've enforced time out for myself so that I can "find myself" again and not rely on his opinion so much.
Outside this mess, our relationship is great. We get along, we laugh a lot, we never really fight. He's a great guy, the ones who take out the trash without you having to ask type. I think this just really caught me off guard because I had such a perfect image of him.
Anyway, Thank you SO much for all the feedback. It's great to have different perspective on things. All my girlfriends keep saying the same thing: kick him in the balls!
