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I'm not saying you can't depend on people. I depend on a lot of people in my life to bounce ideas off of and listen. However, I also know that I can make it on my own and that is am important thing. If you can't make it on your own it puts too much pressure on the other person. I had to learn this the hard way by losing a few friends in the past because I depended on them too much. Then I was alone and back to square one. I vowed that that would never happen again.
If I lost everyone in my life, I would be extremely sad, but I would still be able to function and support myself. I would not lose any confidence or think of myself poorly because I was alone.
Pretending is not a good thing and it will break you down quicker than anything. You should not have to pretend you are something that you are not. While you are getting used to your new believes, you may feel like you are in an unfamiliar area and are pretending. However, if it is truly what you believe then it should be temporary.
It seems that you are putting a huge emphasis on your hair which puzzles me. Are you concerned about your hair or do you think that your thoughts are 'wrong' or in the minority? You've never really said what your thoughts and beliefs are except that it has something to do with prejudices. Were they racial, socio-economic, gender? Just seems odd that you are having such a hard time. As for your hair, what is wrong with it and is it fixable with a haircut or styling gel? There are always solutions, you just need to find them.
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Whatever did happen to your soul?
I heard you sold it
Choose Heaven for the weather and Hell for the company
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