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Originally Posted by dalnet22
Hey, this is a long story, and the reasons are complex and mysterious. However, wherever I go, I am constantly worrying about what others think. Part of it is because I recently changed my beliefs and way of thinking for the better. I used to be a very angry, prejudice kid, but I broke out of that last year. I am almost 21, and I don't have many friends anymore because the old ones dislike the new me.
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It's good that you've seen that it's bad, but you can't always just switch something like that off like a light.
You worry about what others think about you because you were always the one to be thinking things about them. Now that you've gotten rid of the bad ways, you're feeling the fear of exactly what you used to be guilty of- judging. I think that with time, and with the more you settle into the new "you", you'll have no trouble building up a network of friends again and you'll realize that, yes, people judge other people- but that doesn't mean any of us should care, or that we have any control over it.
We all judge, in some form or another. The thing you have to find peace with is that, much like the way you used to judge others, other people's judgments on you are as pointless as they are superficial. Keep your self-confidence in check, and make sure you don't ever lay down on your opinions just to satisfy someone else- so when those old friends give you shit because you're not an angry bigot anymore, tell them where to shove it and stand your ground. Insight does not always come easy- and doing a 180 turnabout like you are pretty much never comes easy.
