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MEAD · 08-16-2006, 11:45 AM

Just thought this was interesting.

I finally said "I love you" to my girlfriend. Finally, after she let it slip to me about a month ago. I would have said it right back to her then, but I had some things to clear up, feelings to understand...
Mainly, there were two women weighing on my mind, my Ex (first love), and a girl I could hardly say I even dated.

First off, I was foolishly comparing my past feelings for my Ex to those for my current girlfriend. I was obessively checking to see if they were the same, if, in fact, these new feelings qualified as love as I had knew it.
Secondly, I was worried I was still a bit too intereted in this other girl who I went on a few dates with before I met my girlfriend now. Something about her kept me interested for far too long.

I still had those things on my mind when I told her I loved her, but I had realized that I do love her, that she has been the best person for me that I had ever been with, and that the past would always be there.

So then, a few nights after that, I end up having a quite revealing dream.

First I run into that girl I barely dated who I still was too fascinated with. Of course, I pursue her. I lead her on. We flirt, and tease each other, and then just before we are about to kiss, I pull away, feeling that this was completely wrong. She ends up walking away, and later giving me the finger and acting like a childish brat (which she most certainly is in person).
After that, I think it would be a good idea to drop in on my Ex (we are still friends in person) and see how her life is going. I sneak into her place before she's there, and wait to surprise her. As soon as she walks in, I give her a ambush hug, and she seems pleased enough to see me. She walks off to put her things away and all of a sudden my stomach turns. I realize that her apartment is a total mess. It's horrifying. Insects are eating decaying food around her greasy sink. Giant bugs, bigger than I've ever seen, are layered like frosting atop this caked on flith. It all reminds of death. Apparently the mess is too much for her too, and she bends over and vomits. Then I wake up.

As most dreams go, I had no idea I was dreaming until I woke up . I think I might have known a tiny bit, but I couldn't have been sure. So when I woke up and began remembering the dream, I become proud of myself. I didnt kiss the girl even though I could have with no consequences what-so-ever, and I realized that if I tried and live in the past all I'll get is a disgusting mess.

So now the point. Have you kissed the girl? Have you relished in a past realtionship? We are talking only in dreams, of course.

08-16-2006, 11:45 AM	#1 (permalink)
MEAD Insane Location: South Florida	Only in Dreams Just thought this was interesting. I finally said "I love you" to my girlfriend. Finally, after she let it slip to me about a month ago. I would have said it right back to her then, but I had some things to clear up, feelings to understand... Mainly, there were two women weighing on my mind, my Ex (first love), and a girl I could hardly say I even dated. First off, I was foolishly comparing my past feelings for my Ex to those for my current girlfriend. I was obessively checking to see if they were the same, if, in fact, these new feelings qualified as love as I had knew it. Secondly, I was worried I was still a bit too intereted in this other girl who I went on a few dates with before I met my girlfriend now. Something about her kept me interested for far too long. I still had those things on my mind when I told her I loved her, but I had realized that I do love her, that she has been the best person for me that I had ever been with, and that the past would always be there. So then, a few nights after that, I end up having a quite revealing dream. First I run into that girl I barely dated who I still was too fascinated with. Of course, I pursue her. I lead her on. We flirt, and tease each other, and then just before we are about to kiss, I pull away, feeling that this was completely wrong. She ends up walking away, and later giving me the finger and acting like a childish brat (which she most certainly is in person). After that, I think it would be a good idea to drop in on my Ex (we are still friends in person) and see how her life is going. I sneak into her place before she's there, and wait to surprise her. As soon as she walks in, I give her a ambush hug, and she seems pleased enough to see me. She walks off to put her things away and all of a sudden my stomach turns. I realize that her apartment is a total mess. It's horrifying. Insects are eating decaying food around her greasy sink. Giant bugs, bigger than I've ever seen, are layered like frosting atop this caked on flith. It all reminds of death. Apparently the mess is too much for her too, and she bends over and vomits. Then I wake up. As most dreams go, I had no idea I was dreaming until I woke up . I think I might have known a tiny bit, but I couldn't have been sure. So when I woke up and began remembering the dream, I become proud of myself. I didnt kiss the girl even though I could have with no consequences what-so-ever, and I realized that if I tried and live in the past all I'll get is a disgusting mess. So now the point. Have you kissed the girl? Have you relished in a past realtionship? We are talking only in dreams, of course. __________________ Here are some phrases I'd like to be able to say, in all honesty, before I die. "That's it, send out the ninjas!" "So then I had to kill my way to the second floor."