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Oh, I know you would be in. But I think it will take me a bit longer to get the point where I can act on these things. Or at least to the point where this kind of action would be spontaneous and okay (e.g. at an experimenting party). I am a slow-mover unless I suddenly get the figurative balls to go crazy and jump in... which isn't about to happen around here, at least not with our group of friends.

Ktspktsp is very supportive of my exploring... hell, we just talked out a super hot FFM fantasy tonight over MSN/webcam, it was incredible! He knows I have fantasized about this one girl in some of my courses, about her with a strap-on and all, and he helped me visualize how it might go (she's conservative Christian however, so no go in real life!)... which was just HOT. But it is a big step to go from that to real life, and I am not yet sure if I could handle it (or if he could, or us together).

So, if this group ever decide to do one of these experimenting parties, I might end up going. But no guarantees just yet!

(Owl, does your comment mean you wouldn't come to play with us??)

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